Here's the story: This morning I was still thinking about the concept of being wholeheartedly willing to serve and letting God use me as an instrument to reach out His children in this area (see yesterday's entry). With that in mind I had a fantastic personal study, and by the time we were leaving the apartment I was so pumped to go talk to everyone.
Well, the day started great, and we met a lot of great people on our way to the street we had felt could have some potential new investigators. Door after door, excuse after excuse, and after about a five-block span of knocking on doors the morning was done and we were spent. I though 'no big deal. We still have the rest of the afternoon and evening.'
The afternoon came, and of all of our appointments only one held through... and the guy was drunk. As the day came to an end I felt that I disappointed myself, my companion, and my Heavenly Father. Up until planning i was thinking of the things that i didn't do, and all of the events that added up to this horrible feeling I had of being an unproductive missionary.
I felt the need to go back to basics and open up the "how do I use my time wisely" section of Preach My Gospel. Admittedly so, I went there purely for technical guidance, but what I found instead brought peace of mind:
"The ultimate measure of success is not in achieving goals alone but in the service you render and the progress of others."
I'm tired, and I'm getting dangerously close to lights-out time, but I can now go to bed satisfied of another day at work in the Lord's vineyard.
Lesson for the day:
Know that there's urgency in this work, but also understand the BIG picture. Otherwise, you can get exhausted and frustrated very fast.